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If words could bring you back to life, I'd say I love you, oh so loud.
I'd scream for the world to hear, I'd scream it, oh so proud.
But you are gone, and my words remain, and now I cry and cry.
I keep asking myself, so hurt inside, "Why, God, why?"
I want you here, more than ever, although, we were so far apart.
For with you gone, I don't know how to heal my bleeding heart.
They say your gone, I can't believe; I don't want to hear those words.
I want you here, how selfish of me. Now, you fly with the birds.
I lost you, and now my heart, she cries and yearns for you.
More than anything in this world, I just wish you knew...
How I felt, so passionately and deeply on the inside.
Damn it all! Damn me, damn your pride.
You played it off like you didn't care, but deep down I knew you did.
You broke this heart before, treated me like a kid.
Now, your gone. And this fact remains true:
For a long time, my heart will ache, and she will ache only for you.
Oh how I wish that your life hadn't ended, at least not before I said my peace.
I remain stuck here, with these words, and you remain deceased.
Never had I thought, nor did I see this day,
You being gone, you can't be gone. No, not this way.
They tell me a bullet took you, I don't know why, or how.
All I know is that I need you here, more than ever now.
Why did it have to be you? Didn't you think of me?
Didn't you think of how hard I'd take this, or how hurt I'd be?
I don't blame you, although I am everso upset.
The only thing that makes me smile, is thinking back to when we met.
I wish we hadn't, so that at least when this happened, you I wouldn't have known.
Over the four year time period, my love for you wouldn't have grown.
You would have just been an anonymous tragedy, someone's fallen baby boy.
God, how I hate myself for being so coy.
I don't know what to say now, I just want to scream.
I wish everso badly, that all of this, was just a horrible dream.
I know that I would awake, and you'd still be alive back home, where I once was.
But, I know that will never be, and I'll have to do what everyone else does:
Move on with my life, but I honestly don't know how.
I don't want to, but I know that I will always love you, the same way I do now.
I'm ending this now, because my heart is all over the ground.
It's smashed to pieces, because your know longer around.
I don't want anything from you, honestly, I never did.
Not even your love, because as a kid,
I wouldn't know what to do with it, but let let it whither and rot.
Now, memories, heartache, and tear-soaked eyes are all I've got...
Of you...
Goodbye.
 emo_butterfly928 · Sun Jul 27, 2008 @ 01:07am · 1 Comments |
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