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I never liked him.
And also i love muh daddy
for helping me see that.

I guess i just liked talking to him
becasue it felt so easy and i never felt
like i was being jugded or anything.
and he was willing to listen. so i was
happy at that.

and he seemed so kind and understanding.

But whats i wonder is what happens when i have too
go will i miss this person. will i feel bad or will
i ignore my feeling and go on with my life.
i mean i go on with my life anyway but would i always be thinking
about this person in perticular????

i always told my self that if i lost a frined or they were to hurt me emo
that i would move and and feel nothing and that has worked quite well
up to this point though it stopped i i feel really stupid. stressed

iv been hurt so much by the old so called friends and family on my mother side
i really don't give my trust that freely i tell people things i don't really care to much
about.

i wonder is me missing this person a cry for help.
or am i just gaining feeling agian.
if so everyone will see me at my weak point....