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I need help. Desperately. Please someone help me.
It's losing its value to me. The last hour and a half I spent the entire time doing nothing but making foil flowers out of my gum wrappers. I didn't pay attention at all. I don't believe half of the things that flow out of his mouth.
I'm losing my faith in God.

I'm trying, Lord I am trying. But I'm failing.

and I'm disappointing my mother. I'm disappointing my church. I'm disappointing myself. I'm disappointing God. Like Noah's ark. How is it possible for something as outrageous to have happened? How can a single person gather all of those animals? Two of every kind? Every kind? And then fit them all into a single boat?

If indeed Noah was able to do so, then how did all of the animals make it? Close, confined quarters, for 40 days and nights, at least one animal would have gotten sick. Right? And if so, the lack of medicine to cure the creature would insure the spread of the disease or at least the animal's death. Even if the animals all survived the ride, there would be so much inbreading that it would have killed off the species. Aren't I right? Isn't that right?

but the most important book in the world says I'm wrong. And I can't seem to find it in myself to believe it. That sacred book, the word of the Lord, and I can't even stand to read a paragraph from it. Going to church is becoming worse for me than Geometry. Geometry! A subject that I dispise more than anything in the world.

Lord help me. someone help me.

please.