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I have been getting to thinking. I am really growing weary over the thought of death. Its a dark and empty feeling that I get because I don't know what lays beyond the closed lids of eternity. That's also a scary thought.... eternity. The word alone scares me. I fear death. The grim reaper is right up there on my top list of fears now. Maybe it is because I am getting older and now I have experienced more people dying in my life and in the life of others. Around the globe in every second of the day there is someone somewhere giving up the ghost. And that scares me to think that that could be me. That.... that will be me.

Or maybe its because I am just not ready yet. I have a long road ahead of me and I can't hit that dead end.... the end of my road this soon into the game. There is so much more that I want to do. There is so much more that I want to see. There is so much more that I want to experience and new emotions left unfed. I need to accomplish before I can start thinking of death. And I have realized that's scares me. I just am not done yet.

But that's when the realization comes in. We all have to die at sometime or another. And it is not set in stone when or where that time will be. So I try not to think about the wretched thought of death. I try to let it ease on my mind. Not to let me let go of the thought but just to keep it at bay. Everyone leaves this world. Its just that some do so sooner than others. Or visa versa maybe later than others.