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Have you ever wondered why everyone else seems to get the guys? or chicks if you're a dude? I'll tell you what, my entire attention spand has been adulterated by that freakin question. One friend in perticular always seemed to have guys hanging onto her every word with baited breathe. Made me rather sick, actually.

I kept think, "What the freak is the matter with me?! aside from the fact that I'm not as: popular, witty, beautiful, skinny or outgoing as most. but still!

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okay, so that pretty much answered my question didn't it? *groans* The world is so superficial isn't it? In many ways, at least. It's rather depressing. You can feel so wonderful about yourself...and then you go to my school or the mall where every girl that you can see seems to fit the mold of a super model. Seriously, how are normal girls supposed to stand a chance???

Once more...depressing.

But you know what? I don't much care anymore. I wasted an entire year of my life brooding on the matter and it got me no where except to the counsilor's office for a talk on proper eating habits. Not fun and not worth the humiliation. I know I'm not the only one who's ever done something like that and I know that I won't be the last, but the fact of the matter is, you're never going to be satisfied with yourself. So why bother worrying about it?

sorry to be so bleak on my first entry, but I did warn you that I was going to write like this is a real diary. So prepare yourself for the depressing and sometimes cheerful life of Valinora of Trell.