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I know it's wrong to think it
to say it even
to even wanna do it
I look in the mirror every day
I wonder whats holding me back from doing it
And I think to my self
It's myself mostly
my fears
my dreams
Other times I know it's my friends
Every single one
Even the ones i never talk to much or I've never seen
I know i've lost when one tells me I'm acting kinda normal
So i try to play a part.
I put on a fake smile and I walk out that door everyday
and I wonder why I bother anymore
to put on an act to make sure the world doesn't worry
I probably do it cause well, I just don't want the fuss.
Or for them to watch me closely
or even care for me
I know I sound selfish or even insecure
but i probably am and you know what?
It's probably all I'll ever be.