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Mood; Not Good Enough
Song; Not Good Eough- Escape the Fate

Have you ever noticed that there is always some reason to not feel good enough. Like if you got a bad grade on a test, you aren't smart enough. You can't hit this note with your vocals and your not talented enough. Maybe if some stupid guy doesn't like you, then your not pretty enough. ALWAYS a reason. And whats strange is that I feel that way all the time. With anything I do, I'm not fawking good enough. I never am. I'm not pretty. Not smart...enough. And not talented enough for it to matter.

I'm not good enough at writing to get ANYTHING published even if I tried.
Not good enough with piano to get anywhere but lousy recitals at my teachers house.
Not pretty anough to get this one guy.
Not funny anough to make anyone but Anna to laugh. But she laughs at anything. ._.
I'm not even clever enough to figure out how to get the lump in my throat to go away.

And another thing. I don't feel one bit guilty about ignoring him. Leaving him in the dust. I should. I should talk to him and tell him everything but I won't. I won't let myself...he doesn't care anyways. Even if he says he does. Its nothing but a pathetic lie. I just walked right out of his life and I don't care one bit. I don't miss him, I don't even wonder where he is or what hes doing. I just don't care! He isn't going to read this, thank god, and if he does...who cares?

o.o I feel like crap. I feel so helpless and litle in this world. Like no one cares. Like no one but my family loves me. I keep telling myself it isn't true and trying to convince myself how great my life really is...it isn't working.

Well, I'm going to stop typing and comment someone for the gold. Buh bye...

<3 Heather (as if someone cares)