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heh well a lot has happened... again..

See i decided to give my real dad a chance again right? Forgive but dont forget.. thats something i have been taught for years.. So i did just that.. i got back in contact with my dad and for many reasons i cant put here on gaia i went to my dads house for three days.
I had a lot of fun too and i was.. .well happy.. i know to watch my back though and its going to take a lot to trust him again but it was nice to see all my family members and all... and it was nice to be happy. Well first when i left his house i went to the ocean and played.. mum got pissed i did that... So after driving an hour and a half to get home i finally get back and well no one really even said hi or anything.. then my mum yells at me for some reason ((cant remember exactly what she yelled at me for)) and i packed my stuff and went to my grandmas cause we had a show to do the next day. ((yesterday)) Well my dad was going to go to the show and i was happy he was going but then i found out my brother was going as well the next morning.
So i took my brother aside and told him tony was going to be there.. He said that was ok and all so i was happy and the day went really well. We sold a lot and my dad and i spent time together again and well my brother actually walked up to my dad and talked to him eek eek i was soo soo surprized he did and they talked as if they were friends and all.. nothing really personal was said so i was sooo happy... Well that all ended
When we finally got home to my grandmas house we just relaxed and all and then i decided to get o n the computer there... Thats when i got a call from my mother telling me that my step mum and uncel were pissed at me... Apparrently they didnt like the fact i went to my dads house and hated the fact that my dad showed up at the show.... they were pissed at me...
well i was afriad to talk to my uncle and i was even more afriad when he said he was coming to my grandmas house.. i thought he was going to beat the crap out of me and i wouldnt be surprised if he did.. this happened plus the fact i have to get rid of all my birds and all my animals and so much stuff... theres reasons we have to do that too.. i cant talk about it though.. so i was really upset and cried myself to sleep..
today al li could really think about is how i dislike this family.. they tell me to forgive people but then they dont.. well thats not true because they forgave the guy that molested me... thats kinda screwed up.. they can forgive that guy but they cant forgive my dad... heh.. you know the worst thing.. my family has got me thinking it is all my fault... my family has actually got me on a leash... i hate this.. some times i just wanna die...