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Book of the Endless
Really, I don't know what I'll be putting in here. Maybe stories, maybe random thoughts, I don't know. I thing is, I'm sure as hell not posting personal things.
The circle beyond humanity
Like most of what I write, I have absolutely no clue as to what the hell this is. It was writen on paper (unusual) under the influence if listening to to much Bauhaus and Peter Murphy. If those names confuse you, Bauahaus was/if the first indie-goth band. peter Murphy is/was the lead singer. he went solo for a while, and if now back with the band and on tour. And coming to Montreal! Woot!

-----Ducking in, dancing through, touching the silence that reaches through the minds of the mad. Has death itself become one of the toys of creation? A bone puppet grinning at skeletal joke through the cold night which spawn the hot noon. Hot noon, a roasting of mind and flesh under the relentless sun. Find the shelter, find the shade until the skeleton grins again and you dance in circles; ever for a meaning, for a circle is life itself, and to dance the circle is to dance knowledge is it not? But once you have gone once nothing reveals itself. Twice around and only the mad rhythm of your heart speaks to you. Of course you may learn nothing from the circle. You started once, that is the problem. A circle never starts and you remember the time you first set your feet upon the path. Still you dance, and dance, and dance, hoping to forget the beginning, hoping to forget that you were ever once not of the circle (and still aren't and never will be as one cannot become of the circle, only be of the circle), hoping to learn the secret then forget the learning (the secret defies learning. You can't learn it, you can only know it).
Then, the skeleton weeps again and you despair and break the circle (how can you break the circle? A betrayal of all you yearn for) seeking shelter once more among the rocks and gravel.


I expect more comments than last entry scream <cracks whip>


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  • User Comments: [6]
    it's a bit strange. why would one wish to forget the beginning of the circled path from which they dance? my understanding is that the beginning is easier then the end when you break from that path, but then that rises the question of, "how do we know that this person started in a darkened state of time and does not wish to remember anything?" then there's the grinning and weeping skeleton which symbolizes the moods of Death. he grins as you dance in his circle, always returning to the fact of your own mortality, and weeps once you've come to terms with the facts of life and death.
    personally, i really liked this random piece of literature...

    comment kiranya · Community Member · Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 09:20pm
    Meh. I liked your last one better. ^_^;

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    comment RizzoBM · Community Member · Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 06:16pm
    This one I will be editing, but carefully. Probably heavily re-hasing the beginning, then carefully adding onto the end about the circle. That one randomly popped up and I like it.

    comment Nihilistic Seraph · Community Member · Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 10:56pm
    Please note that this comment does NOT contain any sarcasm.

    I wish I were more intelligent, in order to better appreaciate the beauty of your work.
    As is, all I can do is feel: feel that I am not alone in my entrancement with the meaningless (does meaning exist?) cycle, feel that I'm not the only one stuck inside and thinking about the outside. Feel that maybe I'm not crazy, and if I am, I'm not the only one. smile

    Did this come randomly, or did you think as you produced it?

    comment Selete · Community Member · Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 08:25pm
    heart Thank you! 4laugh

    Utterly randomly. It's kinda like a different part of my brain kicks in write for me. Sometimes something will set me off, and I'll write on that subject, but most of the time the words just flow. Then I'll go back (if I remember to) and analyze what I wrote and fiddle with it.

    comment Nihilistic Seraph · Community Member · Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 10:25pm
    I found this very profound and deep in a very subliminal way that I appreciate. It is utter madness, as you state, but somehow I don't believe that this was a random spurr of thoughts put into words.

    Dancing in circles before death itself? It seems as though you're telling everyone in the world that you can't stop death, while at the same time you can't stop life. Both are relative to one another so it is impossible to to prevent both. It's like trying to stop time. But I don't know if you've meant to make this piece relative to anything sweatdrop

    And regarding your comment in my last entry, I can't really get a pack of cigarettes since I'm underage, you know? sweatdrop But I'm not one of those crazies that smokes three packs a day, let alone half a pack. I've actually been good and cut down a lot, also because I started smoking when I was 14 out of depression, but now I'm pretty content, also because I don't want to develop cancer at an early age. It's just sad that I developed enough of an addiction to still get cravings, but being at a notorious art school shows I've been able to release emotions through much less harmful and more creative ways.

    Oh, half of it may have nothing to do with your entry, but still, you got a rather long and descriptive comment wink haha.


    comment Kabuki Doll · Community Member · Thu Aug 25, 2005 @ 02:12am
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