well i am basically testing this out right now but yeah eek ummm ok well.... so far todays been pretty good, still having numerous amounts of thoughts in my head, that have been making me feel sick or strange. but i am doing good since i am staying at my aunts house to take care of the baby.... it's better than staying at my house where i'll just get yelled at again and again stare i don't even understand why? i do nothing wrong, i'm just there laying on my bed taking a nap and all of a sudden i hear my parents say "HEY, YOU BETTER NOT BE SLEEPING!!! YOU GET UP NOW AND CLEAN OR READ, BECAUSE THERE IS NO WAY YOU ARE GOING TO SLEEP THIS EARLY" ............ well it's summer isn't it?????? i mean what else am i gonna do? my parents are so busy that they have no time to go out and have some fun with me and my sis stare it's madness. but yeah i get used to it..... it's just kind of sad though sad , i'm just waiting for school so that i can get away from it all again..... just hang out with friends... i really want to see what seniors left to grad, it'll be interesting. i know i think i might have a few of them leaving and it will make me feel sad, but i know i will meet some of them again................possibly..............maybe........ <_< >_> hmmm. well that is something i will figure out later blaugh but yeah i care about quite a few people....... also in a relationship i think only a superman can sweep me off my feet blaugh well only cause the guys now adays are just not my type, i'm suprised to find even a few razz but nah i got my heart locked on something...... or someone... err yeah.but they have to treat me right, they have to be dedicated and loyal, i don't want someone that will just use me just to get another person jealous or just to be some part of their little game. i want someone that can love me without a doubt, that will swear it to me, to swear his life that he loves me...... to tell the truth i really want to see if they are loyal... if they are then i want to see them last at least 2-3 year around me. i don't really mind if they look around but as long as they don't go to far because i don't think that'd be true love...... well what do i know, all i know is i have a large amount of love and i am willing to do anything for the person i love, i don't care if it costs me my life i will be there for them. but i fear that some day, someone will leave me and i will be to heart broken to even move anymore.... it's kind of the way i feel just thinking about it.... the feeling that i just don't want to move, like my life was drained out of my body and i become to weak to move..... i don't know if that would really happen but i know that thinking about it will even make me wonder.
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