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why did I take them?.....I'm not sure I can answer that question,I guess I was just trying to please her.....maybe look for a way out of the dinner situation.....whatever the reason,it leads to the same.....I took the damn pills,which is bad......for one thing,I get pains....what type?well.....first of all,my body gets too heavy for me and I can't really move.....the room starts spinning faster than usual....heartbeat is faster......and yes,I fall more often......sounds like my usual self?I know it does but the thing is.....whenever it happenes without the pills I'm fine.....when I take the RA awfull pills,I get pains......you're not supposed to take more than four.....a day......and I haven't......I only took 2.....I'm not that stupid as to try 4 in one sitting but I have taken 4 in one day at different times......amessingly the pains weren't as bad.....so why do I take them?what do I get out of it?I get to stop the hunger.....not fully.....but enought to just make it a disconfort and not starving/annoying.......I feel so tire right now....and yes,it does take alot of effort to writte when you're in this state but I just felt like I had to......great....the breathing is heavier now rolleyes and moving the mouse is difficult.....there's to many things moving right now but if I stand up I know I'll fall.....I know I'll need to have something to guide me back to my bed or else I'll fall and that'll be it for me....for a while atleast.....why not eat?....I tried....but...I get nausea and it hurts even more...hehe......not funny?....thats ok.....