Dear Audiance (insert your name here),
Funny. i do this all the time. usualy one day out of the month i sit and reflect on my life. where i've been. where i'm headed.all the what if's and what not's. Currently, i've notice that i seem to have become sorta hollow on the inside. like there's nothing to live for. nothing matters no more, not like it ever did but still. never like this. over the years, my heart has gone from being surrounded by a thick wall of ice. colder that a polar bears toe nail, into a living thumping organisim. or rather thats what it wants to become. girls have come and gone. their kindness have milted the sorrow and lonlyness away and now there's nothing left but the core. my heart is finaly exposed and waiting for a litle love at the end of the tunnel. but, you see i'ver never truely experianced love before. artifical yes. but never true love. the same senario always plays out. i love her, she never even notices me. i like her, she likes someone else, so i back off. she likes me but gives up or has second thoughts about me. and i never realize until its too late. or, they just use me, nowingly or unknowingly, until they're satisfied. then they (knowingly or unknowingly) tose me aside like yestedays newspaper. or something that you tose aside like something else. anyway, the point is. that because of all of that. i've finaly learn or i'm begining to realize exactly what i want in a relatinship and from life. i'm not gonna get into detail because, its stupid in my opinion and a waste of time. but, today, just like anyother day. i daydreamed about being a father. haveing a little girl to raise and support. thake care of. you know, give here the simple things. the basics. teach her right from wrong and about life, love, lust, and the pursuite of happiness. unfortunatly i can't picture her motehr but she shines in my head as clear as day. which is kinda odd since i'm kinda jumping the gun, thinking aboutr a child before meeting the mothr to be. who ever she is. i hope we can make it last. and even get married. and i have the perfect song for the occasion too. Ladies and Gentelmen, Mr. Barry White Singing this masterpiece thats perfcet for two newlyweds, I Can't Believe You Love Me. it's a goodie. might even make you cry if you think really deep about it. picture you and your lover, taking those steps to wedding bliss. well, thats my time for today folks. sorry for wasting yours. tell me if the link doesn't work ok. anyways
Sincerly,
The Abstract Mentail Patient
T-Man V3 Community Member 
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