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What are we waiting for?!?!! I mean come on!! Cant this hurry up!
You know it, and I know it. So what are we waiting for?

stop being afraid

we stand here waiting, not getting anywhere

I wish I could just forget about what I wish would happen, and just live in the present. But thats hard to do when all I want to do is leave these times behind and go forward, hopefully to a better place.
Anywhere is better than here.
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Ahhhh! I keep thinking about what will happen next! Im not enjoying right now. But what is there to enjoy about right now? I want what my dreams tell me.
I want to live in the world where all I see is your smile. I want to be where all I can do is smile.

I know it will get out someday, I guess some things I just know. Or hope.

If I would just jump a little higher, I could reach what I call my future for right now.
I am so close to changing things that I can almost touch it.

So what is stopping me? What is stopping you?

Fear.

Fear that it wont turn out right.

But then I feel so, icky, because I'm not brave enough to step up to the plate and vote for change. I want other people to do it for me. One thing I dont like about myself.

But I guess I'm trying to change. But this is like really hard for me.
I know thats one thing you cant do for me...
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