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You chew gum until the flavor is gone,
suck the juice out of it, make it a dull grey wad
and cast it aside, worthless and unwanted.
I'm stuck to the pavement under your heel,
just glad to be so close, yet so humiliated.
Have you ever considered what you've done to me?
Do you even remember the quiet high school girl you left behind like all the trappings of your former life?
I sometimes dream of stepping off cliffs, and I gasp awake as I feel my foot not connecting with solid ground.
I never fall. I'm condemned to dream these things without ever experiencing complete and utter abandon, the freedom of not caring because I'll end up coloring the seafoam crimson no matter what.
I wish I had felt such freedom back then. Perhaps I would have had the courage to speak up and be heard.
Maybe you would have wanted me.
I don't feel bitter, though. You made me tough and gave me new eyes.
Thank you. I'm strong enough now to pick myself up off of the pavement before the pavers come to cover its scarred surface.
Pull myself into shape so I may never be hurt in that way again.
 TempestuousSeas · Tue May 20, 2008 @ 01:30am · 0 Comments |
