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Gosh im so worried today. Cuz my dad is coming yep, im at my grandma's, lika always using the computer while their doin something with my sisters.
I hate being here cuz i feel the pain in my back, like i have the paranoia that the think im ungrateful and i only live to use the computer. I heard my sister saying my dad says that.

Anyway was supposed to b in Acapulco with my friends today. Oh right, but my mother hates me so she didnt let me go. No really she actually hates me. Since my parents r divorced she keeps me only for the money my dad sends.

And anyway, my dad is freakin mad at me bcuz of that anti emo stuff going on. Since im a Gothic Emo, random people sometimes tries to beat me up me on the streets, so he says its real idiotic that im emo cuz i should wear something just to impress ppl that isnt even impressed blah blah blah.
But i dont wanna impress ANYBODY AT ALL.
I HATE PEOPLE, why in the world could i be trying to impress them???! Huh? HUH??? ANSWER ME DAMMIT!

Yeah, so now im wearing the most Emo-ish clothing evah, so he will totoatlly kill me today.

And on the phone he was randomly speaking about comunication between us, so traduction: that i am a ******** mute b***h, that i only say yes or no and that my grades are awsomely bad because im a ******** lazy b*****d, that im not even depressed, i only seek for attention, and that i say im alike jthm for looking cool. eek

LIES! (exept the lazy b*****d thing)
Im not depressed, i only hate everything existing, and i dont seek for attention i hate attencion. I say im alike jthm cuz i AM, i dont wanna look cool, ppl say im cool sometimes cuz i dont give a s**t about anything, and in this plastic society thats being 'rebel' stressed Im not ******** mute. I talk but only if i want to. With the idiots i want to and the situations i want to. evil

On Friday a guy on my english class said that if i was kidnapped i wouldnt scream cuz i never talk...WTF!!!! I DO TALK LIKE A ******** PARROT BUT I LIKE BEING QUIET AND PEACEFULL TOO!! I WONT B TALKING AND COMMENTING ON EVERYTHING AND I ONLY TALK TO MY FRIENDS AND NICE PPL NOT EVERY SINGLE b*****d IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everybody says im mute for that issue but if u start a conversation ill follow it IF I GIVE A s**t, ok? Thnx

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