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I have awaken at this early hour; it is quite unusual. My cousin, Uchiha Sasuke, is still sleeping behind me. I nearly woke him when I tried to peel his fingers off of me. Sometimes, he can be so adorable... but his overprotectiveness can drive me over the edge.

The sun has been up for less than an hour... I still have yet to know why I have waken so early, or why I'm even writing this. In less than two days, the fight for our lives will come... the entire shinobi race, humans, and the Realms will be put at risk... I have a bad feeling about this.

What helps me come to this theory is why I'm letting Sasuke come so close to me. He's tried before; Deidara's tried without success... but this one time, I want someone to guide me out of my mess. Is my death approaching, so much like the eastern sun? Am I dying, even as I speak?

Whatever happens, whatever the outcome of this ultimate, fate-deciding battle is... I hope Sasuke will honor me and take my daughter in his home and care for her... even though she is not his daughter, and is the daughter of the enemy he hates, my love, Deidara. It would tear me to know going into that battle field knowing I may not come out and my daughter will only have the aging mother of my love to mother her. I have failed to mother her myself; I have failed so many things in my life...

Sasuke is stirring... I don't want him to read what I've written... not when I'm still alive...

Ohayo,
X Shanaikai