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Notice that this what I will write down really happend. That means it is really personal.
If you don't care about me or something about that, go away, stop reading if it is none of your concern.
If you wish to hurt me blame/flame me whatever or something bad like that,
go away none of your concern or just GET LOST...
It is a private real life story about me...
So.. should it be public? Friends only? Or maybe private.
I don't know and if I feel I have to change it I will change it.

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I like to have comments.
- Have good comments, don't lie. Just tell me what you think or say something.
- Just tell me that you have read it.
- I don't like being flamed or bad hate comments or something like that.
I forbid it. But you can still do it. In that case, know that you will be blacklisted
and maybe more.. Be ware.

Last warning for those who shouldn't be here!
Friends are allowed to read, those innocent who wish to
know more 'bout what happened or kind friendly peoples ^.^
(I don't mind if you read, know more about what happend,
if I do you wouldn't be able to read this)
So Here I start...

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To start, I have exceem for a very long period.
It started when I fell and got a scratch very near my right
eye. There is a small nearly invisable scar at it. It became
worse when I was about 10 years old. Till now ther isn't much
that docters could do. Not much worked... Well this till so far.
Maybe I add more.. If anyone it interrested..
Or just ask. I might PM privately.

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15 April - I had a lot of pain, my whole body starts being a bit wet.
Later on I figured it out that I was starting to bleed. I was nearly whole
the time in bed and I had whole the time much pain. My skin was hard
(because of the blood) and moveing feels like if my skin is about to burst.
If I scratched it, the wound (over whole my body) will open very quickly.
Those wounds feels like fire. It burns.
The same day I didn't eat much neither drinking much because I tried not to move...

16 April - Same like the day before, but even SOOOO worse, laying in
bed even hurts like my skin is falling about and being pulled in all directions...
Like if its breaking like a vase... I know, sounds terrible... but it is terrible too...
I was at an 'auntie' of me which couldn't drive a car. I refused to do anything
and when I couldn't barry the pain, I begged for a docter. I tried to call,
but I couldn't have an appointment... An Unkle called for my other aunti which
could drive a car, but she didn't knew my skin became so worse and by
chance she lend out her car so she couldn't bring me. My unkle told how
worse it was so she paniced and asked her colluage (she was a boss after all)
to bring her to me and then to the hostpital.
So at the late evening, I arrrived there and ran in the wrong hospital becaus
I couldn't find the emergency / first aid / high priority department.
Because it was a long time ago that I was there and much things has changed,
I couldn't find a thing. I accidently ran into the wrong hospital
( currently 3 hospitals, children, normal and something chemical way of healing > radioactive?)
After a while I reach my destiny. I told them that I neede help, but it was like
they don't care because my brain was not broken or bleeding like the hell? confused
Relaxing and slow, so I waited and started shivering again (It was cold after
I went out the car and I also walked outside in public place, outside the building)
After a while they pick me up. (I really went through hell, the trip I made to
arrive in the hospital and even after the trip burning_eyes )
They looked at me asked me things but they seems so relaxing like if I had
no pain, while I was shivering and moving like a robot because of the pain.
My face also told them how much it hurts and I also tried to keep in so I didn't scream..
They slowely helped me (according me) and finaly giving me
something to reduce the pain and salt water (injection things)
After a while I heard I could finaly stay and they were looking for a room.
It wasn't me who had no patient, but they really took a loads of time.
It was arround 4 pm when I arrived and 9 pm when I was in the room
I could stay. (well well, what a story..)

17 April - I still refused the most of the time to move. The most work
was done by nurses and those. They apllied the unguent on my skin and
gave me pretty much medicines. At the end of this day the pain was reduced
a lot. I could move better, but it still hurt pretty much. I was at that day
happier becaus the pain reduced and I could move better.

18 April - Better and better every day, but I start getting more bored
then yesterday. It became hard to do nothing whole the day. There was
nothing that I could do. No book, no TV, nothing.. for hours, just a bit visitors
at the visitorstime which was the second thing that cheered me up.
Like yesterday I had a bad night and didn't sleep much
(but I also slept in afternoon becaus I was bored, but the time
I sleep became weird, timeprogram?? like we usually sleep at night ye know?)
At late evening / night I prepared to sleep (I already knew I would
have a bad night) and prepared a second day of death by boredom)

19 April - Much sleeping at the begin of the day, sleepy and so awake
at the same time. skin went a bit better, but I start feeling worse.. more and
more, and sleep short hours at middle of the day sometimes at that moment and then other times the
other moment.. at the evening I felt being depressed..

20 - April - Wake up really dizzy, I wish to do something to not being
bored and I also I also wish to do nothing because I felt so bad. Visitors,
an aunttie saw me like that and tried to cheer me up. Later some friends
of me also came, they also cheered me up. Much people came, and for a
strange reason I was totaly happy again at the end of the day. I had pretty
much pain in the start of the day which also disappeared (most) at the end.
I start feeling better and it was Like I was slowwwllyy healing while I was sad.
After that it became much better. Most of my time I spend in thinking about everyone I cared.
Which I already did at the first day I had to stay. I had lots of time so
why not. I also realised I had a dream every night.. I could remember them all.
I haven't remembered an dream for a long time ago, so I was kinda surprised.

21-23 April - Most of the time happy, and parents brought me some
stuffs (also new stuff extra happy rofl ) so I wasn't bored either.
I desire to get out as soon as I can, but I was happy that they could help
me so quickly. Healing healing, getting better by time.

24 April - Well will I be able to leave this day? I did filled a form.
Evaluation, like how was the hospital. I don't know. I didn't knew much,
they didn't told me much, although I didn't asked much either. Well today
or not? but this day I heard instruction what they planned to do.
And the nurse didn't knew enough, so the docter had to decide.
which isn't available this day.

25 April - I heard the rest of the plan and I could left. I felt great,
like yesterday

Fin ~