Why am I so weird. I know it is a silly question but I've never really...understood.
I can't quite see why. People say that deep down inside a person there is ultimately a good person. Personaly I don't beleive this.
I think people are b*****d covered bastards with b*****d filling (quote from Scrubs ^^)
But I really think this, do I think all people are like this no.
But i don't think everyone is good deep down. But how?
How do you know someone is faking it, how do you know
someone is not just pretending to like you, or saying
"Yeah it looks great on you!"
but really they hate it and wish it was on them cause
you make it look fat.
Okay I admit it maybe they aren't thinking it
but I'm sure you can think of a better example.
I guess it's just... I can't see how everyone can love themselves
I know everyone doesn't. I know some people can be cold from the winds
of the world I know people can be searching for something that they
may never find. I know some can fall in love, true love!
But I don't think I'm one of these people. I feel sick. I feel so
disgusting inside, I try to be someone I'm not all my life. I've tried
to fit in and in that time I've forgotten who I was.
What I was is gone now, what I am now is just a shell of what I once was.
I've felt Many things but not everything this world can dish out. And I can't complain, for others suffer more than I. But I've
found something inside me. I've seen what I realy am.
And I can never love it. 
