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I don't want to scare anyone (so kitty.......get out of here).
I know that there are people out there who actually give a damn weather I live or not but I just can't help thinking that I should be burried already......I don't want to think this way,don't get me wrong....but I just can't stop it sometimes......I can't tell my parents about it 'cause last time I did I got yelled at (thank you father figure for being an a*****e).....so I know I can't trust them......it's funny,I've already planned my funeral.....in my head atleast.....I know that if I ever do something deadly,they won't know until it's too late 'cause I know at what time to do it (you have to learn everyone's schedule and act just the right way and everything falls into place xd )......I don't want to kill myself.....I relly don't......but sometimes I can't help thinking about how much better eveyone else would be without me......I won't harm myself though.....I promissed kitty and raven that I wouldn't and I still have to keep the other promisse that me and kitty made.....and I wouldn't be able to do that if I killed myself tonight,would I? ^_^no,guess not.....