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Sometimes, I just can't help but feel really lonely...
I think that it gets over sometimes and I begin to lose control of myself...like some serious psychological disorder... weird eh? Well, I practically hate that feeling... sometimes, I wake up and there it is, thats why I have such violent mood swings almost everyday (same reason why my friend calls me Thimbletack rolleyes )
Even if my friends show me enough support for me to carry on, I guess I still feel like it's never enough company emo
The main reason why I think I am feeling uneasy is because I lost my mom at an early age and I still didn't get enough of the lovin' from anyone... other than my dad of course. Most people don't understand me and think I'm being babyish because I like being with the same people a whole lot (unless I'm bothered by you)... well that's the main reason why I try to be something I'm not, courageous, sarcastic, strong...
I guess I really am not. Especially am not strong... I just wanna be. People can dream right? >.< Well, if you think I'm strong and blah, blah... you just don't know me. Or you have a whole new/different perspective about things, people or...me.
Maybe I am strong in a few things... I have to be, right? I mean, who else would?
I don't like counting on people often because I don't feel secure that way... But if I trust you with everything, you should know that you've gained my trust and it's really hard for me to trust someone fully...so take care of it, please. I hate it when people take what I do for them for granted, unless they have a good enough reason... I gotta go now... I hope I feel better, *sigh*