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What have I done?
And now what will become of me?
Why others around me continue to live
And learn to move forward
Here I have gone and refused to face my fears.
Taken a page from a book I swore never to read
Yet when I close the cover
It is my name who is the author.
How can I face the cowardice in the mirror
And still laugh at the sun?
Where did I stumble
And where did I go wrong…
I finally learn to love
And let my body want and long.
Then I twist around at the hint of shadow
And turn when the clouds have come
Somehow I expected you to be there
Instead of learning how to run.
So cliché to say that no one understands me
And no one ever will,
Yet you are the closest I have ever come
To letting myself finally feel.
In my dreams I let you crush me close
And take me to places unreal.
But when it finally came time to take it all
And bear my soul to you,
Somehow I messed up the cards
And ruined the field.
So instead of handling the rejection
I pushed it off to the side.
And now what have I done?
Erased all of what we had begun
To build, to create like so many others
Those who have lost and those who have won.
I shall not weep any tears for you
As they would break my heart
And render my soul…
But to the few who know me
And the moments that you stole...
I shall never regret what I let myself become
And person who no longer is cold
Perhaps when the time is right
And we both truly know
Our hearts, our minds to you I will seek
And if I am lucky, maybe I will find
What you made of me
And remember that when you finally reach for me
Not to be unkind.
 Naree · Thu Apr 10, 2008 @ 12:59am · 0 Comments |
