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Anger filling my belly,
Distorting my soul
Rage seeking to escape from those lips I call my own.
How could he forget?
Was it on purpose that he left me?
Red wanting to fill my vision
Thought of anger and hatred rush my frail body
Twisting, turning, burning to get out.
A promise made and yet a promise broken
Lost count of how many he had broken now
Sanity, reason pleading with emotion
Wretched emotion that has made me feel such pain
Forcing me to flee to the shelter within my mind.
My mind which I gave as freely as my soul and body
Where is that freedom now? What does it mean?
Down the drain where everything else has washed to
Am I some monster to be avoided?
Someone whom it is easy to turn from,
To forget at the single drop…
The drop of a magician’s hat
Where were you, you who claim to love me?
To hold my being close to your own
Let me ask, please,
Where were you in my time of need?
Getting high or getting drunk
Forgetting promise made on a whim
Take your false words, your fake promises
And leave my light, my presence if it so disgusts you
Churning and curdling your stomach
You, who I gave to freely,
Where are you now?
Vile and foul spirit, anger rising inside of me
How dare you
How dare you claim I take nothing seriously?
Try to tell me that our months upon months
That our time together means nothing to me
You are the one who cares naught
My dear one, you are the destroyer
The one who undermines your own true love
Expecting me to deal, expecting me to accept
What you deem is right
I refuse! Turning my head in contempt,
Take that, I refuse to accept.
Now it will be me who breaks you
It will be me who takes those promises
And flings them to the winds.
For that is what our love is…
Dust and forgotten lore in the wind
And soon, you will forget me
Because I will no longer be here
No longer will I bow to you or your whims
I will create my freedom
And this being will become freedom
And nothing you say or do
No acts that you can create, no words that you spin
Silken words I know to be poisonous,
Will ever draw me back
Because I finally am free
And I shall remain that way
With anger and love no longer clouding my judgment
There is nothing you can do
Fore I am leaving now,
With a heart that is no longer weighted down
And a smile on my face.
 Naree · Thu Apr 10, 2008 @ 12:57am · 1 Comments |
