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The Mind That Has No Limits
Random & Freaky Thoughts :) A Few Poems, A Few Wacky Ideas, Some Pain That Finds Its Way Into The Locked Heart.
Dark Thoughts Become Reality Then Its 2 Late

You're running away from it all

Breath coming in ragged gasps

While a river runs down your face

You’re running harder than you ever tried

Away from all the searing pain—and life


You don’t know where you’re going

Thinking you just need to get away from there

Your heart pounds in your chest

An odd reminder that you’re still living


All your life passes in a blur

Running from everything that made you ache

The tears, loss, depression—

You run with the hope that it never will come back


Day turns to night

The sun replaced by the feathers of death

You collapse from sheer exhaustion

And you just want those wings of hell to claim you


You realize that you have escaped nothing

Just boxed away in darkness

You bang on the invisible enclosure

With your failing strength

Desperate, full of hate with nowhere to go


You’re trapped with nowhere to run

No one to see, nothing to free you

You’re invisible to all but the pain

Asking yourself why the hell am I alive?


Nothing around in the dark

The enclosure is jagged, cold, and unbending

A cage built of obsidian closing in on all directions

Making you bleed from every pore of your skin

Your bones breaking like shattered glass

With just the slightest of movements

No oxygen left to breathe

You come to the realization that you

Cannot be saved-but you don’t want to be


You scream but no one hears you

You gasp from the bloodcurdling pain of it all

There is nothing left from your life

You want it all to end-- Now


The soul ripped from your chest

No pulse left to feel

You feel dead already

You just want to make it official

To stop the bleeding of your soul

The stillness hugs you close

The first slice of ice water numbing the mind

You’re tired of suffering here in the dark

This thing called life

As your bruised and broken hands brush the knife

Lying upon the spiked stone floor…


Aw, the knife in the dark

The only hope here for you

No one left to care

This steel object, the only thing

To take you away from it all


There’s scuttling in the Nothing

The beasts and critters of decay and rot

Moving fast around you

Poison dripping from their fangs

Excited like vultures circling a dying thing


There is nothing left to do

This sweet suicide--

Will save you from being devoured alive

Such a sweet relief to be so near to Death

With nothing left to feel, no flesh slowly being nibbled

By depression, the nerves of your soul being torn away

to the brink of insanity…

No heartache and loss to cause you to

cry and scream yourself dry

From the tears of blood being pumped by your

ever tired --youth-less failing heart


You pick up the thing

And cut yourself there—and there

Feeling, not seeing the pool growing around you

Just then--

An awesome force comes speeding for you

With lightning fast accuracy

The Angel of Death—terror radiating from it’s deathly being

With a scream so horrifying—that of the vengeful screams of a banshee

It comes swooping to claim you

While you sit unable to move

Laughing hysterically from both relief

And maniacal fear

With your arms blood-soaked

Reaching to it for your tragic salvation…


Cut… cut... deep, deeper

Bleed

Silence.



{edit note}

No I am not going to kill myself, the cutting days are in the past, hopefully so is Hell


Data_3rr0r
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