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It Almost Hurts

So small in this world so large,
It almost hurts to believe
There's always someone else in charge,
Someone else who's achieved your dreams

In this crowd of my generation
It almost hurts to be.
Just another grand illusion,
There's no such thing as "unique"

Another dark night where I can't sleep,
It almost hurts to hear my voice,
"Too bad I can't control my dreams,
Because dreaming with you would be my first choice."

When I finally get to dream with you,
It almost hurts to taste your lips.
I know eventually I'll wake again
And your warm embrace won't exist.

As I sit here writing this,
It almost hurts to convince myself;
Somehow I'll be who I want to be
Without being anybody else.
Somehow I'll make my dreams come true,
I'll be who I want to be,
And if I can never be with you,
I'll do just as well with nobody.

On this beautiful spring day,
It almost hurts to lie
While the birds sing outside,
"Somehow, it's so great to be alive."

Dreams

we dream to escape reality
we dream to know we exist
we dream to feel that we're wanted
we dream to survive

we dream to have a point in living
we dream to create a world where nothing goes wrong
we dream to replace out shattered hearts
we dream to laugh again

we dream to have hopes for the future
we dream to expand our imagination
we dream to create things we wish we had
we dream to have peace in our lives

we dream to have someone that loves us
we dream to be smiled upon
we dream to be able to have our wishes come true
we dream to be able to change the world


We live just to die

we live just to die
we lie just to cry
we fight ourselves
we blame one another
we kill eachother
we yell
we hit
we do drugs
we get drunk
we fall in love
just for our hearts to be stepped on
we are pushed around
we are put down
but we smile and say everything is ok
we hide under our smile
and you don't notice
and you do the same
we live a lie
we are pushed down
and we say we don't feel a thing
so take away our sensation inside
we won't be able to take this feeling anymore
because this sensation is overwhelming
and we try to get over the pain
but we fall in love
we get drunk
we do drugs
we hit
we yell
we kill eachother
we blame one another
we fight ourselves
we lie just to cry and...
we live just to die...

Suddenly Gone

You're suddenly gone without a trace
The silence rings to destroy this place.

It's strange to think that you're not here
Cuz i know that forever you're disappeared.

& i wonder why i loved you then
of course, it was way back when

i was scared to talk and shy to act
& baby, you knew it for a fact

You took advantage of me and love,
Your friends hurt me, they teased and shoved

But it never made me let you go
i just stopped letting it show

& then came time that you were replaced
but in my dreams, it was still your face

You turned against me, you were a jerk,
& every mean word you said to me hurt.

I acted like i hated you, but it was a lie,
& now i can't stand to think i never said goodbye.

I'll think about you once in awhile
Your voice, your laugh, every time you smiled

I'll wonder how you're doing now
if i'll ever see you someway or somehow

& i might think, just once or twice,
what could've been between our two lives

You'll always be in my mind, on my heart
Even though now we'll always be apart

If you were still here i'd ask you to stay
But you're not, and baby, i'm not okay.

No goodbyes, no smiles, i didn't even know.
I guess the news you want always travels slow.

I wish i could i give you my sweetest goodbye,
But i can't, it's too late, but you can't watch me cry.


The moon watches

The moon shines with mocking laughter,
Wondering how anything could be dafter
Than the mortals that she’s watched and guarded,
But never cared for.

Love and friendship end in disaster,
This she knows from the darkness of night.
Darkness is anger, sadness and lies,
Cheating, evil, and mournful cries.

The shadowy twist and move,
Their poor souls have something to prove.
Those stuck in the rut, not knowing better.
Look up, realizing they’ve met her.
Glowing in the eyes of forgotten souls,
Seen her in the throwing of bricks,
the lighting of coals.

Rage, battle, against the dark,
But beware and hark,
You know not of what you fight.