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Well I honestly haven't been on Gaia in forever, I see I missed a lot of cool new items (love the G-LOL things... is that what it's called?) I just got my July letter so Candice is really broke. But its my fault for not being on. Hmmm nothing much is going on in my life. Hah I applied for a job at a dollar store (the awesomest job in THE world) but right after I applied for it my uncle died so I was always going to philly. It sucked.. he was only 36... he had 2 kids, 9 and 13. They say he died from complications of diabetes. He died like 3 days before my birthday so I didn't have much of a party until a few weeks later and even that was just family. So I haven't seen any friends besides Ash all summer.

So no job yet, but I might continue my search again once school starts.. maybe apply at the dollar store again.. or a grocery store. I'm not worried about that right now.

I broke up with my boyfriend the day before my birthday. That was so hard because I broke up with him where usually it's the other way around. My first break up and I guarantee I probably cried more than he did. By the next week he was going out with a girl he KNEW I hated.. I don't know if he was desperate or just wanted to get back at me but it was a stab in the heart until I realized if he wanted to get hurt again it was his problem not mine.

Ash and Shane have been a real help. Shane is.... amazing. If there is such a thing in soulmates I really think he's it but then again I don't want to get my hopes up and then something happens.

So all in all, besides the funeral and me going to the emergency room for 3 er 4 hours, and breaking up with Chris, my life has been okay. I'm happy now... truly happy.. I don't know if it's Shane, or just.. the new confidence I have in myself. But I'm happy, I haven't been emo since Shane asked me to promise him I'd never be sad.. So the only time I was sad after that was during the funeral and I think that was a good exception.

OOOOH I got my hair cut too!! Shorter.. it's like a little past my shoulders compared to before when it was almost down to my a**.. it was a big change but I love it. I'll have to show you guys some pics soon.. and I'm trying not to be all "look at me I wear all black and I'm gawth!!" I've been wearing colors and such, I just.. have more confidence and I have no idea where it's coming from but I'm happy with it.

Welp I think that brings you all up to date, love you guys terribly!