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ick. my day sucked
not sure why, but the day just dragged on
everything was making me angry
and i was just kinda in this daze
humm i may be going through withdrawl
you cant just let me see him three days last week and expect me to live just peachy until thurs
it just doesnt go that way
anyways i think he may be grounded because he hasnt been on in a while
so i am afraid to call
because what if i get him in trouble?

anyways i didnt try out for cheerleading
why? because
its not really what i want
it was what they wanted
im not the uber school spirit kind of person
"Go Royals!"
yeah. no.

and i am also proud to say that...*drum roll*
i finally found a guy that i can really be myself with
yes. its charles =]]
your good at this
anyways because im in a country play and all
i am bringing out my inner country
and started listening to Taylor Swift
and then i bought her CD
and all i could think
was "who the hell brainwashed me?"
i hate country
i hate rap
i hate cheerleaders
and being happy
and i didnt believe in love
and the world is supposed to be scary and dark
so why the hell do i hear birds sinnging
and find myself humming "you are my sunshine"
and i started cheering and yelling at Pep Ralleys
i hate them
who am i?
is this the real me?
im not sure
but what i do know is right now
my insides are going crazy
and they feel like they just wanna jump right out
and i cant breath sometimes
and i think i may just need to go to a hospital
because emo kids dont just smile
and sing you are my sunshine
and they dont almost try out for cheerleading
and they dont listen to happy songs
help?

anyways i am going to go check my temp.
maybe its a new strand of the Flu
i knew hand sanitizer could only do so much
or maybe its a flesh eating virus!
eeeeepppppp!
ok i just freaked my self out
im going to go use hand sanitizer
toodles

PS--if you know whats wrong with me please message me =]] thankies