First of all I know I've been stupid. I know I've been a b***h. I know I've been a p***k. I know I've been a hypocrite. I know that I abandoned you and stabbed you in the back and even kicked you when you were down. I know that you trusted me more than I trusted you. I know that in the past couple of months instead of being your soul sister I was being your arch enemy. I know that I turned against you. I know that I left you behind. I know that I left you out. I know that I blamed you for everything that went wrong. I know that you will never forget what I did and what I've done. For this I'm sorry. I miss you entirely, deeply, and truly. I miss us hanging out and making fun of people who tried to hard. I miss talking about what he hated in life. I miss helping each other with all our problems and taking each others advice. I miss being the strong one that you looked up to. Now I'm weak and pathetic, everything that I thought I could never become. I'm begging you to be my best friend again. Even though I know it can never happen. I don't care how pathetic I sound and if you make fun of me to all your new friends. I just want my sister back. No one has replaced you and no one ever can, I know that someone has already probably replaced me to you. Just please, don't go. I'm on a cliff and your hold my hand, please don't let go. I'm slipping away and I can feel it. I need you back, I have no one to hang on to. I want you to come to my birthday party, but my mom is being a b***h (last time I swear for life, I promise) and said she wouldn't let me have it if I invited you. I don't want her to have control, but since our friendship has faded I don't have much to fight for. I need someone to cling to, I need someone who needs me, please tell me that you still need me. Please tell me that you still love me. Please tell me that I'm still your sister. Please call me just once, just to talk like we used to. I want to know about your day, your life. Let me be your friend...
ThoughtlessEndeavor · Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 03:42am · 1 Comments
