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For the following, I am writing what comes to mind... so if it makes absolutly no sense, im sorry

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I stare into the empty space
that used to be there
I grasp onto the imortal eternity
that has died away
I rip open and rip apart
the shriveling, dying object in my chest
that humans have labled as my heart
it has died
it has gone long ago
it is no more

Sometimes, when I feel in love
I can imagine it still beating
Still alive
But I see now it will never be beating
It has been dead for too long
It is too late
It's been too long
It is no longer
No more
Nothing
Dusk
Death
Murder to the important
And Suicide to the unimportant

We go into these dazes and dreams
that will never come true
half the society knows it
half it is clueless
rounded to the nearest tenth
And I have found a hundredth
And yes, they are special to me
I cannot deny that that much

the simple words "goodbye"
Will knock one off their feet and to the ground
worthless as the floor below you
the simple word "hello"
will show you how to fly and never come down
until the clash of the word "goodbye" pins you down once more
"Do you understand?"

Listen to the rain
Crave the wind
Waltz with the air to your favorite song
Crying when you open your eyes and they aren't there
When they leave you be for a while
You feel like nothing
And only hate thrives in your soul
You try to rid yourself from this world with a purple ribbion
Then reach for the glass scissors to plung into your chest
stopped by the only strand of hope

them...

You want to die
You want to fly
You want to die
you want to fly
want to die
want to fly
You want to die
you want to fly
you want to die
You want to fly
You want to die
you want to fly
u want to die
Your wanting to fly
you want to die
you want to fly
You want a kiss
You want to kiss back
Stopped by a fear lingering in the air

It took me until now to relize what im saying
Nothing...
cover your ears
close your eyes
fall to your knees
and come to see me
in my mind
in my drawings
in the screaming from my throat
say hello and hug me close
never let go
never forget my name
never remember my tears
never forget my birthday
never remember my last name
never forget my eyes
never remember my face
never forget the warmth around my body
never remember the stinging of my blood
never forget me
never remember me
I was always with you
I am never here

Leave
the door is that way
blocked by infinate locks
for i will die if you let me fall
do not say goodbye
hold me up high
swing me in circles
call my name in the middle of the night
scream out loud that you love me
to my question screached the day i saw your smiling face


Where are we
Where are you
Where am I
Empty is all i know
Hate is all i feel
I am alone
Lost
and Confused
Help me God
Help me please
Help me...
Help me..
HELP ME!!



Please...