I realized today, that I am selfish, ignorant and conceited... not to mention: arrogant, egotistical, and a complete JERK!
I mean, how could I have been thinking such things? All the things I thought about her, all the stuff I said! It makes me want to wash my dirty mouth out with soap! sad I mean, I actually really had no reason to get jealous. Besides, I SHOULDN'T be jealous! Jealousy is one of the sins of man-kind, and I just committed a sin! I'm not a huge believer of God/Jesus Christ, but I don't want to pay for it when I die sooner or later! I didn't mean to think such horrible thoughts!
Do you know what I said? I said bad words! I don't say bad words! I said I ha*ed her! I was brought up to be tolerant, and forgiving! So why did I do it now? Sango says I'm over-reacting, but I don't think it's true. I let jealousy rear its ugly head and get under my skin! I should just not have paid attention! It's not Kenta's fault he's going out with her... right? He heart loves heart her, so I should just back off and be happy for him, and be there for him, like a best friend should be, when she dumps him.
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I cannot believe I just jynxed their relationship. I am officially the worst Best-est Best Friend Forever on the face of this planet cry . What if Kenta's still mad at me? sad What if he never forgives me for... telling Nazuma off when she was just trying to be nice?
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