Dude what the holy flying popsicle stick is going on on the TV? This chick is telling the guy she's having sex with "You don't know who I really am" while moaning. Now isn't that a bummer? "Oh yes Oh yes Oh honey Oh by the way you don't know who I really am" What the DUCK?
Anyway! I made an important entry in my LJ last night before bed and its all on Friend's Only so I can't link you people to it - so I'll just copy/paste. Oh the joys of copy/paste xd
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I've been doing a lot of research, yes me of all people picking up research books by choice and going to online site by choice to figure this out.
I can't remember who I've talked to about this so whoever I have told, shut up and read or just go somewhere else if you don't want to put up with this rambling again! Shoo shoo, on with you!
For some time now I've been labeled as bisexual because I've been "sexually attracted" to both males and females. But I'm thinking on it now and I realize I don't really have any sexual drive; in fact, the thought of sex terrifies me.
Last night I was talking to Candace and she brought up the topic of sex and how she's tired of the people who treat it like its something to show off and brag about. And then the topic of masturbation followed. Normally, most people would possibly be interested in doing something after a 2 hour talk about sex and masturbation right?
That's where I brought up the topic of asexuality to Candace and she had me explain it. After doing a little research to see what it was, I told her what I figured out beyond what others have told me: its lacking the will to have sex. Asexual people can have sexual attractions to another person but would never act on those attractions. I learned that asexuality can involve relationships contrary to what people have told me and that asexuals can get horny but that doesn't mean they will act on it.
And that's how I feel. The thought of having sex with anyone just.. I can't see myself having any form of sex with anyone. Those times Rami would point out that she knew I had turn ons, I didn't deny it. But that doesn't mean I will act on the result of being turned on. What is sex, in my mind? Just going back and forth. The point I see in sex? None except for making a child. It doesn't seem fun or needed to me, it just looks like an opportunity to see your partner without any clothes on. And even that thought kind of sickens me.
I'm not going to sit here and ramble on about asexuality, that's what this site is for. It helped a lot in me identifying this.
I'll admit I do find both males and females physically attractive, and I love personalities as much as if not more than how a person looks. But do I ever really want to have sex? Not really, so then how would I ever have a kid of my own? That would probably be my only exception. Ever.
 Myth Tariyun · Thu Jul 21, 2005 @ 07:26pm · 2 Comments |
