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being raped and sacrificed by the world over and over again
its enough to make you scream in your mind
enough to make you insane
enough for you to pick that blade up
and do the unforgiveable
what do i live for except to be used by others
i end up hurt and in a puddle of my own blood
scared,frozen to death
what about you?
are you using me
because i just happen to open my heart up to you?
one of these days ill be lying dead in my blood
and your hands will be stained with my blood
you can cry all you want
but ill let you know right now
because of you i lay here in fear
because of you im half dead inside
you backstabbed me
you say youre madly in love with me
then you turn around and say to her i need you
which is it?
tell me so i can leave this behind
i hurt inside
you scare me so much
i end up getting sick
if i feel this pain why cant i end it with you
i guess its because im tangled up by you
you got me lovin you one minute
and hatein you another
i just wanna scream out ******** this
and lung the knife called death in my chest and end my life
i can go where no one- not even you can touch me
i was blinded by you
i was allured to you
i was betrayed by you
i was killed by you
you caused all this pain
well im still being done this by you
im afraid-im so afraid
whats gonna happen next
will you make me into a devil
im already a monster
shut the ******** up!
stay the hell away from me!
just when i thought i was different from all these people
who live in misery
who love pain and beg for it
you made me into one of those people
id have to say thats pretty ******** up
why the ******** did you do that to me
you made me into something im not
and people say why havent i ended things with you its because
i love you
weve been though so much
you really have me in chains without you knowing it
you own my forbidden secrets
i just cant let you go
and ive decided ....
id rather stay with you and die slowly
than end it and kill myself quickly
but now ......ill use the darkness to protect me from your hurt
and the knife you always stab me with