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One Question Haunts and Hurts
Too Much, Too Much to Mention
Was I Really Seeking Good
Or Just Seeking Attention?
Is That All Good Deeds Are When Looked at With an Ice Cold Eye?
If That's All Good Deeds Are
Maybe That's the Reason Why!
Love that song... I'm such a spaz ^__^;;;
Home from boring ol' work. Joy. Did CPR and First Aid stuff today. Boring. But whenever we went on breaks, I read some of MARS. Awesome manga. But unfortunatly I was unable to read book 5 and I will also be unable to read books 9 and 10 when I come to them, as the person I'm borrowing the books from does not have the books. But that's alright, I'm sure I'll get the jist of things. Read 1, 2 and 4 of Hot Gimmick yesterday. I'm totally sucked in. Now I have to wait to read 5 cause my one friend has it, and I have to wait for the books after 5 cause I can't find them in stores.
Yeah, yesterday Sasami, Ely, the Twins and I all went out to the mall. Much fun. I got some new books like MKR II book 1 and Tsubasa book 5 and Ultra Maniac book 1 and Wicked. OMG! They are comming out with a sequal to Wicked! "Son of a Witch" in October!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But first I need to finish reading Wicked ^__^;;;
The Nerd Party went well Saturday. But I was later than expected. Lots of pains with work. But that's alright, people named above that went to the mall (Not including Ely) spent the night at Sasami's and it was nice. Got to see lots of friends I haven't been around in a while. And Leon-kun.... >.>;; But that's beside the point. Though Psymon was a total a** when I was going to go bring Leon-kun home. "Good Luck" he says. What the hell is that supposed to mean?! I really don't understand males... Though, I don't really understand females, and I'm one of those, so I guess I'm just that effed up. Ugh, I'm so PATHETIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well... Nothing can be done. I'm just a pathetic chicken s**t that can't tell a guy that I like him... ^__^;;; I wish I was more secure about myself, but it's doubtful that's ever gonna happen. I don't really know why, but I just really don't like myself. I mean, if you saw pictures of me, I'm sure you would agree I'm not pretty, and I don't have a good personality, and I'm a terrible hypocrit(sp?) and I can have really drastic mood swings and I rather hate myself. Sometimes I don't understand why I have friends and stuff. Guess I'm just lucky, huh? My friends are some of the most important people to me, and I'm sorry I can't be a better person for them.
Yeah, now I know I'm just being annoying, and it's doubtful anyone's ever gonna read this except me when I'm bored. So there's kinda no point to me posting these journal entries, right? Oh well, it'll keep me entertained in the future.
Ja matta ne...
 RDKitsune · Mon Jul 18, 2005 @ 11:03pm · 1 Comments |
