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Hey there people who are actually taking thte time to read this! I'm emo..if you haven't noticed my life was great I had a hot crush who finally became my boyfriend over the summer. It was the best summer of my life..I truly mean it! He was the best thing that ever happened to me since I met my best friend Yurinoudon.But..then...came the faithful day we broke up at first I really didn't care at all,but soon it enough it hit me like a ton of bricks and I broke into pieces crying.I've never loved someone as much as him and I really thought I would get over him but I haven't.I cut myself over him I did everything I could to get him out of my head but he never seem to go away.I always feel that he is watching me I hear his voice in my head...call me obessed I don't care because I know it.It's been about 4 months since thetn and I still cry over him I'm to scare to tell him how I feel I don't want to be broken again I don't think I could make it thourgh that...ever again.I've tried to find someone else but all I did was hurt them and worry my friends. I'm broken and empty as ever I haven't felt anything in months I'm hoping to get better really I do but I don't think I will. But I hope if he's reading this that he knows this! STEVEN I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL!! You were the first one I've ever cared for this much you showed me love...you made me smile when I was depressed and crying.You've been there for me for 2 years now and now your gone and it kills me.I know you might not care and off somewhere with my whore of a girlfriend who will never love you as much as I.I just wanted you to know how much I love you and how much it kills me to just say we're friends...I'll never ever be the same but maybe on day you'll relized that you do "love" me again it may be already to late and maybe not..but please figure that out soon before I'm gone forever.
I know the people who just read all that are more then likely thinking that I need a therpist and maybe some meds to help but..I'm far beyond that people way beyond it. Maybe one day I'll find someone who will love me as much as I love Steven..and you guys should think that to and cheer me on and help me out!! But this is enough heart breaking story telling for one page so I'll goning to stop here. So good night people!