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i almost killed someone today, not today a few minutes ago. i almost took my guitar and beat him to death. I almost killed my twin brother. He bit me, and it hurts and it's bleeding and swelling. so I kicked him hard, than my other brother took him and picked him up and put him in the shower and turned on the water. My twin needs help, more than I do. I'm in control. I didn't kill him, in fact if his problem was fixed I never would have had to think about killing him today. but there I was with my buitar raised above my head. Blood flowing, people screaming, i was saying to myself 'Kill him, Kill him!" But I droped the guitar, and just held myself on the floor. I'm in control. My god I don't even know when it all started, I don't even know why it started. but that's chris starting things for no reason. He is so narrow, he is such an idiot. God I hate him! There no good left to appreciate any more. hell I don't even know why i dropped the guitar. you know the first thought i had when I saw it there, the guitar, a perfect killing machine, was "i'll ruin the guitar." god he needs help more than i do, well I'm going to go fix up my leg.