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I guess from my grade 11's intro to Athro, Psyc and Soc did teach me something. Somewhere in my memory of last year school work i remember the cycle of pain. Starts with shock, rejection, greif then healing. But.. most of you know it.

Anyways, my shock started when my friend was rushed to the hospital last weekend. I couldn't beleive, she acted so strong and immortal in a way. I was told that it might not be a recovery but i can hope and pray that she might make it. That i did, everyday... till today that is.

My rejection happened to be a relatively short one. My personanlity often is left without it. So it is rare that I ever am succome to it a lot. This lasted about an hour after the call today. Most would be about a few days to weeks but accepting it finally eases some of the pain.

Well, you can guess where i am now; Grievance. I really don't have much of a choice really. My family here really wants to help me but I'm a person that needs space and lots of soft pillows to cuddle. I shut myself for a while and usually i'm better. Crying by myself, thinking about my friend is how I grief and then I might be moving on but for now I'll just cry and cuddle for a while...

Her furneral is tomorrow and I'll be going to it. I can't say I won't cry nor can I say I'll blubber to oblivion. But I know that she cared for me as I do to her; as sisters, friends, partners in crime as equals. By god I will remember her for what she has done for me in the short time I have known her.

Rest is peace my friend, rest is peace


In Loving Memory
Georgie