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Well I am bored. Really bored actually, and confused. I don't understand people, I used to pride myself in knowing people, or at least understanding their actions, and many times I am correct. But now it seems that I am getting no-where, and that I do not understand people I once thought I knew. Am I going insane? Am I losing my touch? Or..are the people I once knew trying to get away, trying to make me believe something I had never once thought of. It won't work though, I am a pretty stubborn individual, but what if it works, I don't want it too though, I really don't. But..it might happen. So..what do I do then? *laughs* Nothing I guess, the only thing I can do is wait and see what the future holds I suppose. My emotions are going crazy, *laughs* Chels told me that emotions are good, that to feel them was great, I felt it then. I knew what she understood all these years. It's better to feel then not to do so. I went almost my whole life without feeling emotions, it seems impossible to some people, but in my home it was the only way to surivive, but now that I have these emotions again, I will not let them go. I would rather feel the pain and sorrow's of life, then not to feel anything at all. I hope though that when my friends have problems that they cannot, or will-not understand, they will come to me. But if they do not, I will understand, they need their privacy. Everyone does. Thanks my friend, for listening.
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