I love him but I don't know he he gets that. Every night I cry because of him. My best friend tells me nothing is worth my tears but still. He seems like it. I could never tell him though...I guess I'm afraid. Rejection? No, just afraid of his reaction, even if it's not rejection. He has to gain his mom's trust before he can go back out with me or have any relationship above friendship. Don't get me wrong, I love being his friend, he makes me happy when everything around me is crashing down and I'm underneath it. He is there. And I care about him. But every day I feel like I'm letting myself get crushed. How do you tell a person you love them, and know they believe that you mean it? Is it possible? I'm not sure anymore. I am going to make a movie one day about how love really is. It never happens like they do it in the movies. They have a small conflict and then the main characture solves it and they get to be with the person they love, no strings attached. But in reality, you have to fight, it seems like you have to fight forever. You are scared that if you say something wrong, you'll push them away, so you have to think everything through. I love him, but there is so much more than just the words, "I love you." Because they explain everything I feel about him, but not how he feels about me if he returns those words.
But my best friend Jasmine! She is awesome. ^-^ I can tell her anything and trust her. I know she listens, she is the best friend ever. neutral You faggers better agree.
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+My heart is in a million pieces but I love you more each day with every single shattered part+