crimney. my life is really fricked up. and i can't believe i just realized this now. i mean i've always tried to convince myself i'm normal nd everyone's prents are evil but no i realize their not all like my parents.okay so my life was good aside from the fact my mum liked to grab my arm. scream and/or yell at me and pull my hair. then she would calm down then act like nothing happened. and what really bugged me was that she would smack my butt. i mean ew. she smack my butt. it's just wrong for my mum (who 4 the record isn't even blood related to me and 38 years older) yeah it was scaring. i just put it aside 4 a while but i still flinched everyonce in a while. but what really made me blew up waws when she purposely bugged me. and she thoght it was funny when i yelled at her. then i would start crying and run to my dad and he would blow up at my mum and my mum would giggle and act like nothing happened. after the 2nd grade my parents transfered me to my bros school and i have to admit my 3rd grade year was great i became friends w/ these ferternal twins right away. then the next year the twins started to hang out with ths other girl. so for about 1/4 of the year i had no friends. then i became friends with the 3 girls who i am still friends w/ (except one who moved away) and so then up until the 6 th grade my life was great. in the sixth grade i didn't have any of my cirle of my friends in my class. so for 3/4's of the year i had no friends. then i became friends with this girl who was genually nice to me. all the other girls would just hang out w/ me because i was some one to hang out with or some other reason. si this girl was really nice to me. then we hit some bumpy road and we broke away over thesummer. but over the time period of time i didn't have friends in the 6th grade i started to get depressed. and i subcame to cut my self and i have scars i am now ashamed of. i think of everything i went through and i wonder why i did i do that and this and why do i lie to myself? then in the last 4 months of the school year i became friends with the girl and then i joined this choir and i became depressed less and less. and in the 7th grade i virtually didn't get depressed. i got 3 new friends and i renewed my friendship with the girl who reached out to me.so i was really excited about 7th grade cause i'm finally going to be at the same school as my childhood friend. and i get to be friends with my forst real 6th grade friend. over the 7th grade i realized she was not the real friend i need. she was in the choir i joined and i couldn't be friend with her because we're just way to different. in alll honesty i didn't have the heart to tell her. in the choir i made 3 friends one who lightens me up whenever i am down. the 2nd i can just cry to when i need it and she can talk to me. and the 3rd is the friend i needed my whole year of 6th grade. she went thorgh the same thing as me. depresssion cutting everything the same. so now that 7th grade has come to an end i entered with depression problems fake friends and new ones and i left with no more depression problems a fake friend 3 new best friends and a new look on life. i'm now going to leave.
 mirrorith · Mon Jun 27, 2005 @ 09:39pm · 0 Comments |
