I really honestly stick by what I say when I say that I suck at being a person.
This morning I woke up in a great mood. I was feeling confident, hugging people, laughing, having conversations, writing well, and being generally fabulous on my last day of classes. Yeah. ******** that. I should have known not to get myself feeling so good about myself.
I went to go pick up my SENS test that I really thought I did well on. I studied hard (and I was proud of the fact that I studied hard instead of procrastinating.) There were only a few questions on the test that I was unsure of. Richard sent out an e-mail telling the class that the tests were ready to pick up and that there were eight A’s. Since there were only 12 people in the class, I thought that I had a pretty good chance. No. I got a 77.
I don’t understand. I really thought that I did well. I don’t really know how I could have done any better. I studied. I listened in class. I don’t understand how I scored so much lower than expected.
My self-esteem hasn’t been this low in a long time. And I don't just mean today. I mean in general. I can't talk to people well. I can't speak in public. I can't do well on tests, apparently. I become paranoid way too easily.
Ugh.
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