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	nanashi-sempai's Journal my boring and complicated life....please try not to fall asleep while reading...


My summer sucks. Totally blows. All my plans....ruined. I wanted to get a job...they won't accept me because of the OTHER goody-goody bastards...grrr. So no job, no tablet, no new clothes that I had been wanting for ages, no costume for the anime convention. If that's not bad enough, I'm lonely and confused as ****** about everything in my life. My friends aren't coming down for the summer so all my plans and saving my money went for nothing. Not to mention that now I can't even step OUTSIDE anymore...it's too painful. I'm like now allergic to the sun or have hypersensitivity from it. Fun fun. So I'm stuck in the dark, inside my house, feel like I'm **** encaged...I feel so trapped....and I don't know what to do... stryk_nine** · Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 03:57am · 8 Comments


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	Oh that more than really sucks extremely, I feel freaking sorry for you. Offline Post Sanity · Community Member · Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 04:50am


	it's ok, but now my best friend hates me. this day can't get any worse. seriously. i just want to curl up and die. ugh. Offline stryk_nine · Community Member · Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 08:04am


	Death's too easy.. its amazing how ugly this war called life can get.. we're always fighting to live..and for those of us that can't fight anymore we fall linto eternal sleep. With someone with as much talent and creativity as you I"m sure you'll figure out a way to enjoy your summer :3nod: lol, I know me, personally I won't let myself get lonely no matter how far away my friends are. ... :ninja: don't tell anyone..but I start to see things.. :XD Actually its true.. I'm kind of weird.. my imagination started getting crazy since I was a kid and ever since then I've been very weird.. which is why I like art so much..so I can share my imagination. :3nod: But I know for a fact I'm not the only one. A lot of people can easily dive deeply into their spiritual side and let their imagination run lose. So you say you have a little cash to spend? Why not get some tools/programs and utensils and start letting your imagination run wild!!! I mean you are a highly potentially good artist. Start drawing!! It doesn't matter how gorey or depressing the pics can be just let it out!!! Let the chaos out of your mind so you can organize yourself back into who you would like to be!!! Among the chaos of the mind there is an identity buried inside of you!! Why not spend your summer finding it!! :D During the age of adolense (spelled wrong) :sweat: we have an identity crisis!! Its been proven by various psychological studies!! So why not face it now and discover who you are and who you wanna become!! I honestly understand the pain and anxiety of losing a really close friend, but is it really that bad? Dispite whether that person is there, will that really do anything to you? Life goes on no matter how many loses and pains you may grow through. I don't know why she/he is mad at you or what caused it, but all you can do is make ammense and attempt to rebuild the bridge to the relationship... And if its a relationship that's meant to end simply because your paths are going seperate ways than so be it. It won't be the first. People change and grow. And as they do they meet new people, they say good byes, and they learn to move on from community to community doing what they can to enjoy life to its fullest. Life is what you make of it, if you go believing the summer is the pennicle for hell on earth that's what it will become for you. I've put my body through a lot of pain simply because I feared what was to come, I feared I wasn't strong enough to take on life, that all the walls were falling in. But you know its NOT!! And I"m telling you right now you don't have to put your body through all that pointless pain!! There are dying children out there!! People that are always worse off than you!! Dispite the obstacles you still have something they don't. And despite all that, they're fighting the same war.. to live.. or to die.. Come on, your a video gamer!! THAT's FUING COOL!! :XD I don't see that many girls/ young women that good at games!!! Train then!! Become invulnerable!! I mean you have amazing talents at your disposal! Make use of them! Strengthen them!! Become stronger!! Man was born to succeed not to fail! If failure was the case we would of died a long time ago, that we would most certianly have!! Let good come from this suffering!! Not more pain! Your in a cacoon stage too you know..just like I was.. Keep pushing out of that shell so that your wings may be strong enough to give you flight!! So that you can sore!!! Keep pushing!! No matter how many things are holding you back!!! I know you can do it!! I've seen your mind at work!! Your ability to stay committed to something and to do things for others!! I've seen what you've done for something so seemingly pointless to the majority of the people on this site, and yet you still do it!! You've been a loyal Orscallian!! And you've been willing to continue to participate in that guild simply because its important to you!! Because it gives you something that other things don't!! You have the ability to hold on to something!! Now just figure out what it is you want to hold on to and hold it with all your strength!! For you'll find that, [i]that[/i] very thing is what defines you, and what makes you so important to those that love you!! Discover who you are, and what you wanna do with this summer NOW, with no chains and with a fresh mind!! I don't believe obstacles are there always to neccessarily slow you down Miss Nanashi, that I most definitely don't. Some are there to get your brain moving faster.. to give you the opportunity to do more creative things with your time. So let's think about what's do able this summer? :!: Watch a new anime series!! :3nod: :!: Draw!! :!: Draw Computer Graphic!! :!: Write some poetry/a book :!: Draw a comic for Orscalla :XP :!: Get a video game!! :!: ~~ Other in door things that are available for you. :!: Organize your room!! :sweat: I do that too much.. lol (as in rearrange it) :!: Fix something in your house!! :!: Make your house look spiffy!! :!: ~~ Have a ice cream cone!! :!: look for other possible old clothes lying around that you may be able to hand make into a cos play dilly! :!: Research on the net for things that may help!! :!: Bother your nerdy internet friends with pointless pms. :sweat: lol.. did I say that out loud? .. The list is infinite :XD Come on!! Just get creative!! ...Have a great summer Nanashi wink: !!! Offline fargokraft** · Community Member · Sat Jun 25, 2005 @ 07:25am


	whats that supposed to mean aaron?? IM GOOD AT VIDEO GAMES!! AND SO IS ATEH CHUU!!! AND AND NIAN!! scream hehe I like draw a comic for orscalla!! [i have a bunch of them on my floor stare ] Hmm, there always is something fun to do during vacation. Make some prank calls.. listen to music, draw some stick figures, make kool-aid [even though your mom THREW AWAY THE KOOL-AID MIX scream ] And run around outside during the night screaming goodnight to everyone. Those are probably stupid things to do but shut up. Maybe you can get some useless floppy disks and tear them apart?? Hehe, or just spend time eating in front of the computer/tv screen getting fat. Well, this time I can't beat Aaron in long messages, CAUSE HIS IS FLIPPIN LOOONG!! But, ohhhh well biggrin -Fiora [the amount of times i pressed enter was to extend my message] Offline monikachu · Community Member · Sat Jun 25, 2005 @ 06:52pm


	you guys are great xd heart heart Offline stryk_nine · Community Member · Sun Jun 26, 2005 @ 12:40am


	XD lol Offline fargokraft · Community Member · Fri Jul 01, 2005 @ 06:53am


	Talk about goody-goody bastards......Damn you Aaron!!!!!!! Offline Kyosuke Hatatsuki · Community Member · Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 05:51pm


	Haha XD Offline stryk_nine · Community Member · Tue Aug 23, 2005 @ 11:45pm

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