I wish I could just erase things I dislike from my past.
For example. My whoring, Paul with Mel. Some of our arguements.
-sigh- I dunno because of all my dreams and stuff.
I cry and cry.
How can you have such lack of trust in someone you love and go out with?
Wil this change? Sure I forgave him.
But my trust that I find hard to gain in people.
Was broken that day of him and her. And broke more when I found out he'd cut.
And once more when he smoked.
I don't know. Sometimes I wish I'd never met him.
It would have saved me from so much hurt.
Yet then I think of all the happiness I've gained..
For example. My whoring, Paul with Mel. Some of our arguements.
-sigh- I dunno because of all my dreams and stuff.
I cry and cry.
How can you have such lack of trust in someone you love and go out with?
Wil this change? Sure I forgave him.
But my trust that I find hard to gain in people.
Was broken that day of him and her. And broke more when I found out he'd cut.
And once more when he smoked.
I don't know. Sometimes I wish I'd never met him.
It would have saved me from so much hurt.
Yet then I think of all the happiness I've gained..
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