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I'm alive right now. I'm staying alive for tomorrow. But sometimes I wish I could re-live yesterday. Exactly 21 days ago I was on Burrito's top 3 now i'm merely in his top 10... He'll come around I know, he always does but the feeling that he liked me was just... amazing. He doesn't hate me, we're still friends but there is always someone prettier than me and he's shallow enough to care more about looks. We'll never have anything more than this friend, more than a friend, friend relationship.

He knows I love him... he just doesn't know how much. He just doesn't know that my very life doesn't even mean as his smile. I know how I sound like a pathectic desperate person just searching for prine charming... but I've found him. Sure he's shallow and can be a basstard, but he's really nice. If I'm sad I can call him and just the sound of his voice will make it all better.

But really this is right now. Yesterday was a right now and those moments where he liked me are moments he'll never get back and ones I'll treasure forever.