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Today was a very...strange day for me. Last night I got this really strong feeling that I was going to die today. That I was going to get shot, or get in a car accident, stop breathing, ect. I was freaking out all day, looking over at the door. And I was waiting for it. Thinking to myself, just hurry up and kill me already! But of course, I'm still alive, which explains the journal entree. But the weird thing is...I was really reflecting on my life without my life. If that makes sense. How my family would feel, what it would be like after I die, it's a really scary thought, especially at this age when you haven't lived long enough to live and everything is still so confusing. I would at least wanted to have my first kiss. First real boyfriend, had my first real dance, go to the opera, have a job. There's so much that I would regret, though I'm not scared of the actual dying part, I'm afraid of the afterlife and everything I would be missing back on Earth. I have to go soon, but here are some things that happens today:
-I made Theater One Act Play.
-Basketball went smooth.
-Elora's going out with Kevin. XD
-Almost everybody's single.
-I'm not dead.
-Getting new songs. Slowely.
-Only one more day of school until we are let off for Thanksgiving holiday.
-Fine Arts Program tommarow.
-Bleh, Pep Rally tommarow. But for basketball.
I guess that's it. Oh, and I finally bought the cookie dough, yay! I seriously do need help on that addiction there. *laughs* Good night everybody on gaia. I'll see you some other time.

-Maggeh-