June 15, 2005
Today sucked. There was just nothing to do. And last night I tried to help Kaz out with something in the Marketplace and ended up getting screwed over in my quest. I need to sell what I bought soon and get my money back before prices for what I'm questing for get even higher. x.x And Kaz got mad at me about it too since I was pissed and wanted him to buy it from me. I was just trying to help him. He could help me out by buying it back but of course he has no money now. And I found out from Scott that Gabe is in some place for suicidal people and no one can talk to him. That's so stupid. I want to call him and see if he's alright. I think he would like to talk to me. Stupid morons. I hope he gets out soon. It's amazing how Josh talks less and less to me. I invited him to a chat and he's said nothing this whole time. I wonder if I should break up with him. I'm not good at breaking up... I usually wait for the guy to do it even if I don't like him. x.x I think Josh is going to be the last boyfriend I have for a while because I always want to have a boyfriend because I feel alone without one, but then when I get one I end up being relieved when they break up with me. Kaz was the only exception. So yeah I'm tired of bothering with it. The guys that I like never like me except as a friend, and then like all the rest of my guy friends, who I only like as friends, want to be my boyfriend. I'm sick of it.
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