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well once again my heart feels like weights are being put on it and added pound by pound...lately i've been thinking...how can people like me? how can people love me? if you like/love me, please answer that question if it's not too much trouble for you...i feel like i'm gonna cry...i feel like perhaps He doesn't love me anymore, at least not as much as He used to (no, i'm not talking about God...) he rarely ever says I love you or I love you too...like when i say I love you always and forever...he just says Yep yep forever and ever...or me too....or something like that...it makes me very sad...and that makes me want to die...like i'm not worth living...and i'm sorry if this offends anyone who reads this, but this is how i feel...like there's no point left in the world...hardly anything makes me happy anymore...i mean, truely happy...a genuine smile, not a forced grin....well there's an update after who knows how long...and i'm on the verge of tears....woopdie ******** doo