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Hey! Sorry again for the delay! Has it been long? I can't remember. sweatdrop

Anyway!

I'm in Houston now, babysitting my cousins. (A 9 year old 'talk backing I can do whatever I want' killer machine girl and a 5 year old 'cry when I don't get my way and if you even TOUCH me I'll cry to mom who thinks I'm an angel' karate boy) What keeps me going is that at the end of the summer I'm getting $500. razz I'm going to go to a tanning salon and get a tan with a tanning tattoo thing. You know, say I want a playboy bunny on my hip, well you put the playboy bunny on that part and the tanning booth tans around that playboy bunny so when you take it off it's there on your hip!!! Totally awesome man! Lol. Then I'm going to by some cool labeling expensive clothes that I could NEVER afford if it weren't for this job, get a cool haircut cut by a 'highly recommended because she's really good at cutting hair' person, and then I'm going to put whatever I have left on my phone so I can talk as long as I want whenever I want!!!! *sigh* life is great....sorta...

Dani is not talking to me anymore...don't know why. I wrote her an e-mail asking her what was up and that I've felt rejected by her and she hasn't even replied to that. I mean I know she's getting more friends in Rouncd Rock and I'm TOTALLY happy with that, as long as she's happy, but it still makes me sad that she doesn't have enough time to schedule in her old best friend. crying I had a dream and it went something like this:

I move into a new neighborhood and I'm sitting on the sidewalk and just looking out. Dani comes driving by on her red pocket rocket and she glances at me. She and I have this feeling like we KNOW eachother from somewhere but we can't remember where. She drives past me then stops and looks back again. She sighs like she doesn't really want to do it but she feels obligated to and reverses to meet me. She says 'I can't stay long. Preston is waiting for me at his house.' and we go inside in which she leaves after 5 min. This keeps happening until like a few days later she does the exact same thing except when she talks to me she says," I can't do this anymore. I'm too busy for you. My friends are waiting for me at the mall, so goodbye." and she leaves forever. A couple of days ago I had a dream where I was with my friend Rebekka at the mall because it was like her birthday or something and all of a sudden Dani was there and she talked to me like she wasn't sure if we were still friends or not. Like we were hesitating to talk to eachother. I wondered why she came back and I was pissed that she came for Rebekka but not for me so I asked snottily,"What exactly are you doing here? Why do you even bother trying now?"
I had another dream this morning with her in it. She was with me running from cops then all of a sudden she stops and says 'you're on your own now.' and dissapears.
I don't know. I just felt like putting these in here.

I'm glad your talking to me though ShadowShiek!!!! Congradulations with your exams!! I'm proud of you! That's way better than what I could do. I plan on getting my act together when it comes to grades this year at school. No more clowning around...and even though I SO do not believe in homework I'll make it a point to try every now and then to do it. xp . It's gonna be tough, but hey....what isn't?

I went to the mall today and bought me 3 pants and 2 shirts. EXPENSIVE let me tell you. I spent $110.83 on that stuff!!! I could go to Wal-Mart or the lowly life Mall in Killeen and buy the whole store with that much cash!!! lol. Oh well. I did say I was going to buy REAL clothes this time, right? rolleyes

Well, I'll update more later. I got to go and see what those two kids are up to. It's too quiet for my taste.