So last night.
I pushed paul as far as I could.
Then used it sort of as a reason to finish with him.
Well I still feel like some of my spine has chipped and I have a very big bruise on my arm. I'm just hurting all over.
I was such a stupid girl. But with being on. Fed up of trying to move a room when I'd planned on going out.
Then him going on at me I'd simply had enough.
I've gone and ******** things up.
Since I do love him.
I do care about him.
I don't know if I could spend my life without him.
But I will if I have to. And I'm thinking I do.
So not only do I emotionally abuse him as he says.
Last night was the time I hurt him physically on purpose. For hurting me.
Whether he believes the knocks in the balls I've done before at accidents simply because they're in my way and I forget how sensitive they are.
If that makes sence.
I've made such a mess of things.
I've been up all night trying to think of ways to sort this.
I just can't, as much as I want to.
I refuse to eat. Look after myself or anything.
I'll give myself the punishment I deserve.
I need to be so badly. I'm a horrible person who needs to change.
If it means punishing.. so be it.
I pushed paul as far as I could.
Then used it sort of as a reason to finish with him.
Well I still feel like some of my spine has chipped and I have a very big bruise on my arm. I'm just hurting all over.
I was such a stupid girl. But with being on. Fed up of trying to move a room when I'd planned on going out.
Then him going on at me I'd simply had enough.
I've gone and ******** things up.
Since I do love him.
I do care about him.
I don't know if I could spend my life without him.
But I will if I have to. And I'm thinking I do.
So not only do I emotionally abuse him as he says.
Last night was the time I hurt him physically on purpose. For hurting me.
Whether he believes the knocks in the balls I've done before at accidents simply because they're in my way and I forget how sensitive they are.
If that makes sence.
I've made such a mess of things.
I've been up all night trying to think of ways to sort this.
I just can't, as much as I want to.
I refuse to eat. Look after myself or anything.
I'll give myself the punishment I deserve.
I need to be so badly. I'm a horrible person who needs to change.
If it means punishing.. so be it.
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