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Lifted on Silken Wings
Just a Crush
It's just a crush

If it's just a crush, why does it hurt so much? I've seen the way he looks at her. Why won't he look at me that way? But I'd settle for a little less. I'd settle for him just recognizing me, just caring enough about me to be worried when I'm hurt. Or maybe I wouldn't. But it'd be enough for now.

It's just a crush.

If it's just a crush, why is there this gaping hole in my chest? Why does it hurt so much when I remember he barely knows me? Why can't I be content with just knowing him? I get so selfish. I should move on, but I can't.

It's just a crush.

If it's just a crush, shouldn't I be able to get over him? To move on, find someone else? If that's true, then why can't I? I should forget him, move on. There are others out there, aren't there? No, none like him.

It's just a crush.

It can't just be a crush, can it? I don't think so. And wouldn't I know? Shouldn't I be able to know? I think so. But everyone tells me it is. And they tell me to get over it, to find someone else, someone better. After all, he loves someone else. I'd never have a chance with him... right?

It's just a crush.

No. No, it's more then a crush. Because I can't get over him. I can't find someone better. So... Maybe, just maybe, it's much more then that, then a crush. Maybe... maybe I love him.


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  • User Comments: [4]
    wow, that's really good. is this how you really feel right now? if you ever need to vent, i'm here.

    comment brownieeyes91 · Community Member · Fri Oct 26, 2007 @ 04:33am
    I... Know the feeling. You wouldn't believe me if I told you, but... I always thought I was going to end up falling in love with him, because I'd never felt so strongly before. Ham even tried to help set us up... HAM, okay, think of who we're talking about. I even remember how he smells, because I don't know, I just remember smells... Smelled like spice.

    But he did like someone else to the point of obsession. I tried all I could... Tried chasing him. Being a secret admirer. Talked to a close relative of his. I learned alot going after him. The main point being, whenever I fell flat on my face, I always had my friends there to help me up. I never really appreciated it, that was, goodness, more than a year ago. Maybe two.

    Anyway... Yeah... Hope you see the point of my going on.

    comment kittygomeow · Community Member · Sun Oct 28, 2007 @ 11:35pm
    Oh I have, still do and always will feel like you, altough lets hope that both of us gets the guy in the end. sweatdrop Amazing that I found this entry whom precisely expresses MY feeling too xD

    comment chriisie · Community Member · Sun Dec 23, 2007 @ 12:29am
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