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I have come to realize i really am scared about moving to alaska, im scared of the 24 hour darkness.
i know I present it as being ready for anything, and that im not scared of anything, well at least not being scared of alaska

but i really am, and its kinda hard, im beginning to wish i could change our decision, to pick somewhere else to live.
We had options to go other places, but we picked alaska, its his comfort zone.
But what about my comfort zone.
I'm going to a place quite possibly in the middle of winter, to pretty much pure darkness, and i don't know anyone.
its almost worse since tony already has a set group of friends there, people he knew before me, he talks about them all the time, the fun they had.
but with that group, where am i supposed to fit in?
how am i supposed to fit in period, I'm a Kansas girl at heart, being transplanted to Alaska, which is like the exact opposite of here it seems like.

It hurts everytime tony says something negative about kansas, this is my home.
And i don't know if we will ever come back here, I like kansas, its home for me, but once we move, there is nothing here for us to come back to, my family isn't here anymore, just a few friends.

How am I supposed to adjust to this?