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I hate my life, its not fair! the guy that ive likes since last year right, came over to my house because we had to reherse for a play, and video tape it, and like the whole time, he was flirting with me and making like sexual remarks toward me. that was fine and everything, cause not only did i want him to, but i was making them back, maybe hoping that he'd like me even more and maybe we could actually go out. But i guess now hes going back out with this freshman, were sophmores, and he doesnt even like her. He thinks shes anoying and he says he doesnt like to spend time with her because her friends are also anoying. the only reason he wants to go out with her is because he can do stuff with her. And he knows damn well that i would do things with him, maybe not go all the way, but anyway. He says she doesnt appreciate hi voice, and i tell him all the time, i love his voice. Its beautiful, gawd i melt every time i hear him sing. And he says all the time that he likes it when im dirty, well talk dirty anyway, so i dont see what the problem is. So every one says he likes me but nothing is happening between us. And it pisses me off because i know he likes me, its so obviouse, the things he says to me and the way he acts around me, it makes its so obviouse.
I was talking to my friend during class, and he was listening in, and we were talking about how life sucks and how guys suck because they never tell you how there actually feeling, and when they like someone there not as open as we are about these things. And i think i made him feel bad, because the rest of the period, he was like staring at me and lookin all sad and depressed.
im sorry, but im gana say something to him again and if he doesnt say anything about us then im gana screw it. because i have other people who i can be with, like this 28 year old guy who likes me, i said i wouldnt do anything with gim, but he can be very persuasive. Specually cause im so atracted to him anyway, its really hard not to give in.
so yeah, im gana go read a love novel and be even more depressed about my life, and how they always get the guy andi never get anyone that i want.
 skelitonJack · Sun May 29, 2005 @ 02:58am · 1 Comments |
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